Wow, What A Week.

Well, this past week has been very interesting to say the absolute very least. Ever since Sunday, my eyes have slowly become open to a whole lot of things and I honestly believe that God is showing me things that I never could have ever imagined. So lets take a look back at this past week.

Let us begin with this past Sunday morning when I was at New Spring Church. Perry spoke on a message speaking about being stuck in a certain spot...job wise. As you all know, I have been frustrated with Best Buy for a VERY long time. Ever since Dawn, Brotha J(James Burgess), and alot of the Best Buy 520 originals left, it almost feels like they're targeting all of us veterans. But I know God has got my back so I try not to let it bother me. But when I looked at my schedule for this coming week and see that they have me closing Sunday night, I was about to say "Enough is enough" and walk to heck out. I cant do that though because I'm too friggen deep in debt. I'm talkin about so deep that right now I couldnt even pay one of my credit card bills this month. And my phone bill gettin jacked up so friggen high that I may end up having to get my cell phone cut off. So its definetly a fact that I cant leave Best Buy yet. So yeah, I'm definetly stuck in that position.....or am I? Could I have a purpose at Best Buy? I'll go into that later on. Lets go into the rest of the day.

Later on that night, I went to TNA's Against All Odds Pay Per View at the Bi-Lo Center in Greenville, South Carolina. And I have definetly got to say that I had the absolute greatest time I EVER had at a professional wrestling event. And one thing that night showed me is that my love for professional wrestling still runs through my blood. I havent done much with professional wrestling since November and it almost seemed like it died out. But I can honestly say that it will NEVER die out. As a matter of fact, it feels like my love has officially come back into full form. And yes, beginning next month I will be going back to Royston, GA for Alternative Pro Wrestling. As of Wednesday night, I more than likely wont be doing anything on Friday nights anymore, so yeah. Again, I will get into that later. But yes, my love for Pro Wrestling is still alive and well.

Next we head on over to Monday where most of the day me and my baby brother(by another mother)D hung out at Planet Comics. And yeah, needless to say we had a great time up there. Played a little bit of Marvel Vs Capcom 2, got a few Transformers comics, and all sorts of stuff. And while up there, we decided to announce that there will be a Puzzle Fighter tournament at Planet Comics. The date is yet to be announced, but I am most definetly getting myself ready for that. I've done officially gotten addicted to Puzzle Fighter and I will NOT stop until I defeat Scott Jensen in this game to become the greatest Puzzle Fither champion in Anderson, SC.

Tuesday comes along, a friend of mine and myself talk on the phone for a while and we decided that we're going to open up our own graphic design business called Half-Way Rays. We talked about alot of things, like how to start up the business and all sorts of other stuff. So yeah, Tuesday was a great day aswell. Got my mind turning alot.

We then move onto Wednesday night where at Student Ministry, I felt the power of God to its fullest extent...well, atleast from what I've felt anyway. And it wasnt even in the big service. It was when we split the kids up into small groups, and my group of 6th graders PROVED to me that kids are the future Revolutionaries of Christianity. I was one of the ones as a kid that wanted to be a Revolutionary and lived it all through high school. Sure I had my bad moments such as cussing every now and then and some other things....but if someone wanted to talk about Christ, I would talk to them about it. And I would spread my love for Christ completley around school. While there were others that I went to church with who pretty much...yeah, didnt really even believe. It was a 100% front. And it really disgust me to this day that there were alot of peeps I grew up with who were "faking the funk". But this past Wednesday proved to me that the kids of today are 100% different from when I was growing up. Everyone who believes in Christ is 100% REAL! They will talk to everyone they know, and what proved to me that fact is when I just said we were gonna have a moment of prayer and whoever wants to pray can pray. EVERY LAST ONE OF THEM OPENED UP THEIR HEARTS TO GOD! It was so amazing, it even made me start crying. I mean, it was just so beautiful to hear all of them kids praying and...its just beyond amazing. So I am most definetly proud to say that I am a youth volunteer at New Spring Church and anyone that wants to feel the presence of God in a way that you've never felt before...you need to get on this train. I'm tellin ya, its AWESOME!

Now onto other needs at hand. I mentioned earlier that I more than likely wont be doing anything on Friday nights anymore...that gets into this point. Later on that Wednesday night I felt joy....and depression. Let me explain. There is a good friend of mine who I care for ALOT. I look at her like she's my little sister. Have to now though because I know unfortunatly that it will never go any further. It seems to be like that with alot of girls these days....well, cant really say these days. Its always been this way. Thats honestly why I dont believe in the whole "a man should pursue a woman.", because if we do...two things will happen. 1...you'll become too close and you know for a fact that the girl will NEVER have an interest in you. Or 2...she'll shoot you down like an Iraqi plane. And believe me, I've felt number 2 more times than a man can imagine. But yeah, I got over that a long time ago, big deal. So we became best friends. Still are, without a shadow of a doubt, that'll never change. The thing that will change though is we more than likely wont get to hang out or talk anymore. Reason being is that she finally got back together with the person she loves. And I definetly gotta say that I was VERY happy for her. As a matter of fact, I was smiling from ear to ear when I found out what happened with them on Wednesday night....until I came to the realization. I more than likely wont be seein her anymore. I'll be lucky if we even talk on the phone once a week. Last time this happened, she was dating some other dude and yeah...I rarely heard from her. And at that time, I was slowly drifting away from God. Started becoming one of them Sunday peeps. Go to church Sunday, go nuts the rest of the week. And there was one point I almost got into drinking. Not hard drinking, but one of the nights that I had came home, I got home and drank a half of bottle of wine and smoked 2 cigars. Thats within an hour period. So yeah, needless to say I threw away my Straight Edge lifestyle and hit a HARD depression. But that was then...this is now. God has changed my life so much that I cant really even think about drinking or smoking. I have no need to be depressed that bad. I need to be, and I am happy for her. She's back together with the man of her dreams, and I want to be the first one at her wedding. But yeah, I unfortunatly probably wont be hearing from her as often. Thus is why I was depressed at the same time with my happiness. Maybe it wont be that way though. Maybe we'll still talk often. I dont know. All I know is this. I'm gonna let them do their thing. If she wants to talk, she knows what to do. If I call, more than likely they'll be together and I'll feel BEYOND awkward. Def dont wanna do that. Everything is still all good though and I'm def happy for both of em.

Now we switch the board over to Thursday. Thursday was of course SAD which of course means "Singles Awareness Day" or as couples like to call it, Valentines Day. I HATE this time of year with a passion. Why do I hate it you ask? Thats the stupidest question you could ever ask. Thats about as dumb as askin "Does God Exist?" You all know why I hate Valentines day. There has never been a year when I've had a Valentine. About to turn 27 in 7 days(man, I feel old), and out of all of them years....never had a Valentine. Even when I was dating someone(1 of the 2 girls I've dated), that girl wasnt even around. Probably cheatin on me, but yeah. Regardless of that though, SAD made me come to the realization...that maybe God didnt put someone on this earth for me. And usually I'm really upset about that. All this love to give...and no one to give it to. But now I'm fine with it. A year ago, I spent the whole day(well, not all day, but the part of the day that I was home.)lookin at porn(yes, I admit it. I was a porn addict for 11 years until November.). Now its like "whatever". But then the cutest thing happened. I went to a basketball game to watch Concord's girls basketball team play. Dont wanna go over how the game was because its really pointless, but one of the players on their team came up to me and gave me a hug. And during halftime, I went over there to try to pump them up and I gave her a little message and she asked me...well, nah. She TOLD me to be her Valentine. Needless to say that made my whole day yesterday. Had a pretty rough day yesterday but when she told me to be her Valentine, needless to say I fully accepted it. Too bad she's almost 10 years younger than I am, or I'd date her in a HEARTBEAT....you know what, screw it. TAKE ME TO JAIL!! I'mma get with her. Juuuuust kidding Meg. I may have to try to holla at her sister though. *wink wink* Yeah right, Satan has a better chance of gettin into Heaven then I would of gettin with Whitney. But regardless though, hangin out with the girls last night made a huge difference in my life.

Oh, and of course a new episode of Naruto Shippuden came out last night. Def made it a great night all in all. ^_^

And now onto today. Today at work just seemed to go really smooth(other than cuttin my thumb up, but yeah.). And it almost feels like God has me at Best Buy for a purpose for now. Even if I dont make alot of money....maybe its to be there to put a smile on peoples faces. Theres a few customers that'll come up in there all rude, mean muggin and stuff. But then for some odd reason after they leave, they seem to have a smile on their face after I talk to em. I'm so confused right now, I really dont know whats goin on. Should I stay or should I leave. God, whatever your will is, just let a man know. Thats all I ask.

Another thing that went down today is a voice has been beating at my heart telling me "GET THE DRWF READY! START PUTTING TOGETHER STUFF NOW!". For those that dont know, the DRWF was an internet wrestling organization I created used to run from 1999 through 2002(then taken over my homeboy Nik Madrid from 2004 to 2005). Well, for the longest, I have been wanting to actually open that organization in actual professional wrestling for a while. Been writing the wrestlers I'd like to have in it(local of course), potential venues we could be at, title belts, etc. It wasnt until Sunday night though when I started feeling that tugging on me once again when I talked to my homeboy Chris Blade. And now it seems like I really need to open this thing next year. So now I'm back to square one. Looking at potential prospects to be in this organizations. Looking at the venues(more than likely we'll be at the Boys Club in Anderson, SC.), and so much other stuff. Its time to get this bad boy started, and the countdown begins RIGHT now.

One more day to go this week, and we'll see whats gonna go down. Whatever God has instore for me tomorrow and the rest of my life, I'm more than ready for it. Definetly cant wait to see what happens from here on out.

Well, I'm out for now. I know I forgot to do Throwback Thursdays last night, but had so much goin on that I forgot. But I'll have a little somethin up later on so yall take it easy. And I'll holla at ya later. Peace!